My birthday is fast approaching and while the number itself doesn't bother me (34) it's weird to think that I'm solidly in my 30's because I don't feel like I thought I would at this point in life. I don't know what I thought my 30's would feel like, but I know this isn't it.
I'm married to an engineer, I'm a SAHM of two toddlers, I drive an SUV (no minivan for this Mommy), I still find myself browsing for tops in the Juniors department because the clothes in the Misses section are too "old", etc.
I was reading a post on a forum I belong to that was asking about what age kids can be left home alone and it got me thinking about my baby-sitting days. The first kid I ever baby-sat for was 3mo old at the time. He is now in his 20's and a college graduate. Another kid I babysat for (when he was in elementary school) is now in the NFL. Several of the "kids" I knew when I was in college and working with the Junior High group at my church are now married with kids of their own.
This week I saw pictures on Facebook of 4 boys from my old church that were in my Sunday School class when I taught the 3 year old class. They are graduating from high school this month.
A month or so ago I realized I graduated from high school 16yrs ago . . . I am closer to my 20th reunion than I am to my 10th. In August I will have lived in this state 16 years and I lived in my "home" state for 18. I have lived in this city as long (6 years) as I have ever lived in any one city (when single I moved pretty much every time my lease was up so I lived in various cities within the same metro area).
Time to adjust my expectations because the reality is . . . this is 34 (almost)
I am SO with you on this.
ReplyDeletethe reality is that you never really feel as old as you are...that's a good thing. For instance, in my head I feel like I'm in my early thirties - I'm sure that number adjusts as we age. Maybe we feel the age we felt most comfortable in...in my twenties I was dirt poor and stressed from school, in my thirties things started to come together or maybe even out and I grew tremendously spiritually, and emotionally. Perhaps we should expect that discrepancy in what we feel as to what we are.
ReplyDeleteYes, it's bizarre to realize it's been 11 years since I graduated college! 15 years since graduating high school! So weird. We're still young though. :)
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